Boredom

I'm so bored these days lahhh. I have nothing to do, nothing to occupy my time with, nothing in mind -- BAHH. I think that boredom sucks more than those weary marching band days. I think.

Maybe I'll spend my Sunday in the library? I DON'T KNOW.

Aimlessness and boredom is making my life hell. I should start on my reading, though. I've never gotten around to finishing Pride and Prejudice because the text were too tiny in my version! And there's Sense and Sensibility, The Gift, Sherlock Holmes...

Hmm I know where to start already ;D

BAI!

Singapore, Singapore!

YO! I'm back from Singapore and am very happy with Malaysia. Wooots! Everything suddenly seems way more economical and affordable.

If only I could split myself into two, I'd love to go to Genting as well. But as I can't, oh well, I'm fine with it.

Singapore was good. Not brilliantly-good, not fantastically-good, but good enough for enjoyment. I didn't get to go for much sightseeing and that was really disappointing. Hence the statement.

However I did meet plenty of people -- many of them are simply lovely!

Note: Many, not all x)

We saw Chang Hong too! Yuee Sun, please don't get jealous. You're not the only one who thinks that she's awesome, haha! Orchard road at night looks fab! The only downside of it all was the crowd -- it was H.U.G.E.. Oh, and smokers too. Smokers suck big time.

I had tons of fun during my last night in Singapore! The party JJC organized was an absolute blast! It topped prom night, no doubt. Because our attire was super comfy. I am all for partying in my slippers. My feet didn't hurt. I didn't have to look awesome to feel that.

In a nutshell, Singapore was good. Ugh, I'm repeating myself. Great, even. I still prefer Malaysian food (especially Malaysian Mamee monster!).

***

I didn't post up anything about prom. Photos are available at Facebook. It was nice and I'd especially enjoyed the girl time with Miaw! We had our hair done at a saloon for less than RM40 and my makeup is totally DIY. Don't get jealous lah, I'm sure those who had theirs done professionally would look better. So yeah :)

Since everyone was gonna wear black or white, I'd decided to ditch the black dress I'd bought beforehand. I'll think of it as a future investment (quote Sophie Kinsella). My mom bought me a purple dress (its my favorite colour, after all :D) and it looked okay on me.

I'd given up on the "perfect dress" idea, by the way. It seems pretty impossible to me now. But then again, now I do know more about where to go to get good dresses. And and and... I'd gotten my 3 inch stilettos! Woots! It was worth it. Worth every single cent. Because they didn't disappoint me and stayed intact throughout the night!

Kai Foong's shoe very sad case lor. LOL! Wai Yeen looked super smart! As if he's some kinda businessman (currently in the making) already. So that marks the end of my high school life. I feel a little nostalgic, but that's only normal. I'm reading to leave everything for a new beginning already! Even though now I feel as if I need a compass really badly... and someone to teach me how to read it.

Waiting for graduation...

I MISS REDBOX.

Can't wait till tomorrow! Lalaleee~ I'm more interested in the part after school, haha. Oh this year has been good to me... but nevertheless bumpy along the ride.

We'd gotten our yearbooks today!! Wheee~ Class page looking good! Not perfect, but good enough. Haha. Those photos bring memories of those days alive. Those were the days, man. Not as much stress as now and much more fun-filled!

Phase 2 of life starts soon.

I've gotta buck up. SPM SPM SPM. Those dreary words haunt me. I can't throw everything into the sky and depend on lady luck. Not anymore. Even so, I'll always, always try my best.

Personally, I'm not too pleased with the choice of colour for the cover of the yearbook... but I'll let it slide. Its in an unattractive shade of green, which I'm really NOT keen on. Anyway its content that matters most (:

I'm so convincing that I'd succeeded in convincing myself.

But in reality, looks DO matter. A lot, in fact.

And I miss a certain someone QUITE badly. Its time to let go yet, no?

Quote Joyce (accurately, this time xD):
All ugly people are vain but not all vain people are ugly.

To those ugly people who aren't vain, you know who to find lah xD

Good luck, CYY. You know I love you banyak banyak. Yet you love me less than someone! But I'll not hold a grudge against you for this, because this is so you xD

Stephanie ♥

Farewell party come come soon!

I can't wait till farewell party! I hope that there're things to eat... if not then Alyssa or the other O.C.s should be obliged to inform me beforehand so that I can get my fill of maggi goreng at Kanna's in the morning. Yum, maggi goreng :)

I have awesome presents for my dear clarinetists! Zip-a-dee-doo-dah~~

Well, I L-O-V-E those things I'd gotten you guys, so naturally, they're awesome. And I'll not be the least offended if you were to return the presents to me (no refund, sorry!) because I'd gladly take it for myself :D

Poor Miaw had an allergy attack this morning. She is now under self quarantine. Joking la, she is on sick leave. On the last 2 days of school too. Boo! This is a very sad end to secondary school life indeed. No more eyeing the cheese lover, sigh.

I haven't been blogging nor twittering for ages. However, I've been playing Mafia Wars daily -- until yesterday. This is so sad. I have wasted an energy pack, sobsob.

But I have been attending numerous tuition classes of late. I am seeing improvement in my dismal add maths. Hurray! There're like one, two, three... TWELVE MORE SUBJECTS to work on for those praiseworthy A+s! As I think of this sad fact, my world turns bleak almost instantaneously.

REALLY!

My form of entertainment in school these days are revision and the occasional gossip! Some people are acting very disgustingly in class and it is such a turnoff. Goodness. I can tolerate many things, but not whiny voices, annoying cackles and snide comments from an alien (quote Pn. Joyce). The audacity of this person!

I am left speechless. Literally.

I like Joyce's theory after she made amendments to it. Her theory is: ugly people are vain, and ironically, not all beautiful people are.

But if her theory is wrong, she will be wronged... because the ugly people who aren't vain will hate her for making that statement! Haha.

SCHOOL. IS. FUN.

Yay! 2 more days, 2 more days.

Stephanie ♥

属于 - 梁静茹

属于 - 梁静茹

我坚持的 都值得坚持吗
我所相信的 就是真的吗
如果我敢追求 我就敢拥有吗
而如果都算了 不要呢
或许吧 或许我永远都不要遇见他
或许吧 或许我太天真了吧

属于我的昨天之前的结局
我决定我的决定
属于我的明天之后的憧憬
我迷信我的迷信
属于我们点点滴滴的伤心
我们要各自忘记
属于我们闪闪发亮的爱情
我们再一起努力

属于风的 那就去飞翔吧
属于海洋的 那就汹涌的
属于我们的爱 该来的就来吧
为什么不敢呢 不要呢?
是他吧 命中早就注定了的那个他
是他吧 他原来就在这里啊

属于我的昨天之前的结局
我决定我的决定
属于我的明天之后的憧憬
我迷信我的迷信
属于我们点点滴滴的伤心
我们要各自忘记
属于我们闪闪发亮的爱情
我们再一起努力

属于我的昨天之前的结局
我决定我的决定
属于我的明天之后的憧憬
我迷信我的迷信
属于我们点点滴滴的伤心
我们要各自忘记
属于我们闪闪发亮的爱情
我们再一起努力
属于我们点点滴滴的伤心
我们要各自忘记
属于我们闪闪发亮的爱情
我们再一起努力

That is my current favorite song. Its so sad -- it totally matches me these days. I'm not sad all the time though, I'm just sad when I'm like, alone and in my thoughts. That's when I feel like the world is upside down and all of a sudden bitterness just creeps into me.

I am my own's worst enemy. Oh there are definitely worst enemies out there but then I do know myself best. My weaknesses. My strengths. Not that I have many to boast of. But there are those far few.

I am not succeeding in making myself feel better :/

You know what? I can totally relate to Brutus when we're doing questions that require you to take a stand. I like sitting on the fence. But in terms of character, I think that I like Cassius better. I don't really feel like revealing why. I'll be a laughing stock if I did. Or so I think.

Distractions. I'd allowed myself to succumb to them.
But how very lovely this distraction is!

Bonus marks for English?!

For once, I am at a loss for words.



`



`



`



`



`



I'm starting my 纪念册, finally. The pressure is getting to me. There are only 10 more schooling days left. Oh god oh god. I just hope that there's enough time for me to let other people write in. I am such a procrastinator, really. I remember that way back in primary school, I hadn't had enough time and I was picky. People who did not appeal to me did not get the chance to write in my book. That was last time la.

I hope that farewell comes soon because then only I will get back my RM25 from Alyssa Remesh Natesan. Whether she gets her money back or not. Don't mix things together, Alyssa. Tsk tsk. I am giving you a very valuable lesson on life. You don't tell your boss to get the money you owe him from your cousin, do you? Same case.

Today was boring with a capital B. How I envy those 5S2 and 5S5 people. You guys get a bonus of 10 for your english paper!! So those with results over 90% get the maximum 100%! My jaw dropped open when I heard of that. Literally. I wish that Sharmini would just hurry up and give us back our English papers already. I was so so shocked when she was the first teacher to give us back our exam papers. I thought that she was finally turning over a new leaf.

But leopards don't change their spots, do they?

She only returned one of the two papers =.=

I want to score within my own capability lah. I don't need bonuses -- unless it determines your grade la. As in those X9 marks.

Sigh. More next time.

Stephanie ♥

Happy birthday, Joyce

I should have done this earlier. I know I am such a procrastinator. I'm not gonna use my Literature trials as an excuse either. Oh just ignore this and look at the next line.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY, Joyce!

I would post up a photo of us if I had one. I don't >.<

I would post up a photo of the card I made you if I had snapped a photo of it. I didn't.

I owe you. BIG TIME. And you can always remind me about it in exchange for favours. I won't deny you of that right :)

You are an awesome possum friend, and much of what I intend to say to you is already in the card. But the world has a right to know about how great you are. So, you are by far the most cheerful person I've met. And, you really care about your friends. It is really so rare these days to have a friend who is so attentive without any hidden agendas or evil thoughts.

I'll have to add in something about your tolerance level. You are patient, you don't blow up or get pissed off at things that annoy you alot (there is still a line, though, and its really hard to cross yours). But when you tear, its horribly terrifying. To me. I am at a lost when you're upset, and for that I offer you my apologies for not knowing what to do or what could I do to make you feel better.

One day you should pay a visit to a hot spring. You get me :)

You are an absolute gem of a friend (hey, it rhymes!) and I feel privileged to know you, lest of all be your friend. Good luck, stay happy and your life will be a bed of roses (albeit those thorns!).

Love,

Stephanie.

Nostalgia

I think, that I will be missing a lot of things after SPM.

First and foremost, school.

Next, tuition. And my tuition mates.

It had been a wonderful 2 years, really. Life was great and I had learned so, so much. Of course, it wasn't the ideal bed of roses I initially had in mind, but its good enough.

I'm feeling kinda nostalgic now. Physics tuition is ending real soon. I'll miss them people. We all came from the same primary school. There's big headed Wei Lian (kidding la), big mouthed Yu Zhi (not kidding), quiet Teck Hong, sleepy Xingkun, and Chee Yee who is Idunnoknowtodescribe.

Yes, I'm the only girl there. It was a little odd in the beginning, but anyone could get used to it.

Recently I have been having plenty of laughs in tuition with Lily, Louise, Su Saint, Juosie and Karluis. They're a funny, witty, lively and interesting lot.

Tuitions really are kinda nice. Graduation is nearing, and I'm not gonna miss school, seeing as how I won't be able to go to CHS as a student in the very near future. Gasp! It has been five years already. Primary school graduation feels like yesterday. Well actually not really la since yesterday I was at tuition with Lily they all and tuition with Joyce afterward. But you get the idea.

Oh I don't feel like continuing. Why ruin my day (even though its almost over)?

After SPM then only I'll worry about stepping into a new phase in life.

Excitement?? Reality hasn't really hit me yet.

I wished that I could have done better in today's exam. I still can't get over the fact that Miss Leela trusted us enough to leave us alone for a quarter of an hour. It is an exam!! Well, in any case I didn't cheat la. It wasn't necessary and I really wanted to test my level of understanding (yes, it is Stephanie talking here). This is English Literature, people!

A song is running in my head right now. Its 给我一首歌的时间 by Jay Chou. Weird. I don't even like that song that much. And this Realtek thing on my computer is a Realnuisance. It kecoh-ed me in my Spot the Difference!! Dulannya. There's a time limit too!

If I could just figure out how to uninstall it...

Sigh. I really need to brush up on my computing knowledge. Or else I will fish again (Northern Antivirus xD). It was Yuee Sun who'd pointed out my error. I blame it on Caesar. Because he had described himself as the northern star and caused me to mix up everything.

By the way, Yuee Sun (yes you again), I was right about the spelling of Titinius. But I muddled up Cassius' suicide with Brutus'. Stupid stupid. I don't like how Shakespeare names his characters. Most of their names end with -ius. Its so hard to say if you're saying Brutus' shoes, for example. Or Cassius' beard. I hope he doesn't have a beard. Yuck.

So today was another study day. If I go to tuition, I benefit. If I don't, I go back to Mafia Wars. Simple theory, really.

I can't wait to go school tomorrow! It'll be so much fun meeting up with my buddies! Seeing as how we aren't gonna be seeing much of each other after graduation... OH NO I FORGOT TO MAKE KAI FOONG'S BIRTHDAY CARD. Shit. I made Joyce's birthday card, though. Upon a stroke of inspiration from... me.

See, when I don't update in a long time, I'll have tons to update the next time! This post is solid proof. I think that I have to go make Kai Foong's birthday card already. Inspiration will hit me in another 3-2-1 seconds. No actually it didn't. But it'll come soon. Haha.

Bye! Have a great day~

New skin, hee!

Sawadikah :)

Like the changes?

Its certainly less pink. I got bored of my pink skin. Even my Twitter was all pink (not anymore, fyi). So I'm using my private blog's background. Very eye-pleasing, I must say. Well, till I get bored of it, that is.

Since my photoshop is officially dysfunctional, I cannot create something more... original. More -- me. I guess that I'd have to leave out those butterflies until something is done to fix up my computer. It is old, slow and very unresponsive. It usually takes a few clicks to enter a webpage or to refresh a page. And that is very annoying. To top it off, it serves as a family computer for my sister, dad and moi. The ratio is 3:1. So we usually fight over it. Not a pretty story.

Today I'd started a new tuition. It was okay. The teacher was super fierce. Miaw and I literally jumped out of our skins when she banged the whiteboard. Ouch.

Fate and luck are not on my side. Sure, I may meet someone better, but he really is too gorgeous to pass up! This is to you, Wai Yeen! :p

So Kai Foong, this is The Photo.
If you had Facebook it'd be waaay easier.


Its like 家好月圆。So cool, eh?

I don't know what I'll be doing tomorrow. Shopping, hopefully! But fat chance of it happening. I'll be contented browsing through bookstores for reference books, though. Maybe even a trip to the library? I am trying really, really hard to be pious and prudent here.

Even if I may not perform as well, at least I try.
Well, maybe not so much in chemistry.

Restaurant City is getting pretty boring. I forgot about my food quiz and when I finally reopened that page, the time limit was up. No free ingredient, aww. The fire just died down in me. I'm currently playing Sorority Life out of boredom. Half-heartedly, even.

I spent the afternoon putting on a face mask, sleeping and reading Grimm's Fairy Tales. Ahh I miss those childhood days. I had a virtually endless supply of books from my dad's childhood days. Those books contained plenty of lovely stories that you can't find anymore -- Asian fables (yes, those characters wore sarees and turbans xD) and tales too! I'm feeling a little nostalgic right now. And weary.

Need some rest. My mom took away the rug that I brought upstairs for the toilet outside my room. She claims that it is ONLY for her bathroom. How prissy. And she lectured me for using up all the tissues in her room. Hello, at least I replenished it lah. Its crime to be sick in this household

=.=

P.S. My blog seems kinda transparent now -- very opaque.
I feel... overexposed.

Stephanie ♥

Post-trials outing ^^

Oh-kay. So here I am, after one looong week of gruelling trials. Miss me? You'd better miss your add maths or physics or some other subject.

So, I went out again today. You know, everytime I tell myself "this outing will be the last", I know deep down somewhere that I'm just kidding myself. This is my last year of secondary school, come on. We really should be balancing up between fun and school ;)

Anyway, I had a 10-buck ice cream with Miaw today. SINGLE SCOOP. I feel awful. Really. Don't rub it in anymore. Undeniably, the ice cream (Haagen Daz) was terrific (for the price I paid, pfft), but it had also burned a hole in my pocket. And I'm still smarting from it. Yes, still.

Miaw and I joined different groups of people today. Short sessioned ones, but we'd decided that it would be more fun to go around by ourselves. So it was pretty much a hi and bye thing.

I'm still considering whether to get my eyebrows done professionally or not. I need new eyebrows. Mine suck because the last time I had it shaped during facial they did a pretty bad job of it. But then again I should get it done later. It'll grow anyway. It depresses me to look like how I look.

And if you think that I'm overly concerned about my appearance, let's face the fact that most girls are vain. If they aren't, they're either under developed or they just have less estrogen. Period.

I am super amazed at Hock Eu's newly-styled hair. I highly doubt that it'll "last till prom, at least" according to him. But it looks nice. And I wonder if it'll stay that way after a shampoo. Oh I should stop having so much doubts. But in nature, I am a very suspicious person. Can't help myself sometimes.

The flu is making me very uncomfortable. The state of my mucous is -- nevermind, you wouldn't wanna know. But it sure sticks more than the nail polish I used on Ching Nee's birthday card.

I wouldn't even start mentioning about trials.
They certainly weren't a bed of roses >.< size="4">Goodbye, have a nice day and study hard :)

Stephanie ♥

Update during trials

I'm not gonna bore anyone with details about my exams (for starters they aren't very good), so I'll post something up after trials.

Fingers crossed about physics! And I'm wondering whether it is still possible to salvage my chemistry. Hmm.

Happy birthday, Ching Nee

I feel super accomplished. I went for 3 tuitions today, that totalled up to 4.5 hours and went to the library for 3 hours straight and slept for another 3 hours.

I totally didn't waste my time procrastinating or doing unproductive things!

Yesterday was pretty productive too, but nowhere near today. I went shopping yesterday instead of watching Final Destination with Ching Nee and friends because that movie REALLY holds no appeal for me. And I had a sore throat, so that also meant no Red Box. Unless I want to suffer today and tomorrow and the day after tomorrow lah. Rest assured, for I am not so stupid.

Sorry Ching Nee, I'm really sorry for ffk-ing you on your special day. I hope that you like the gift and card (even if it is a little smelly, no thanks to the nail polish). If you hate it I can understand too. No hard feelings. And I hope that you enjoyed yesterday a lot!! :)

Still, HAPPY BIRTHDAY!

After watching Where Got Ghost I'm really in no hurry for another scary movie. Nor one with lots of blood and gore. Eew.

But I heard from Wen Qi during accounts tuition that Tsunami is really touching. Then again, I don't feel like crying my eyes out in the cinema. How embarrassing. And the way she put it,
"很感动的，整个戏院的人一起哭..."
totally rendered me speechless. And made our teacher burst into uncontrollable fits of laughter.

Yuee Sun damn bad lor. Say go library then in the end I went alone and he went on his own. And this smart guy just had to leave his wallet in the library and called me when I was at home in my bed to ask if I could go take it for him.

Another smart person I met today is Wong Yu Zhi. I informed him that I had sore throat and I asked him to bring not-so-heaty junk food to tuition. He kept on tempting me with his Wise potato chips. And I did not eat a single bite!

I am so in control of myself, man.
If I were to go on a diet I can SO succeed. Don't get jealous!

I'm still feeling satisfied over today.
Do forgive me for being so self absorbent xD

Oh, and Nick, your blog is so you! Ha ha. Your love for physics sure shines in there. Like a... sun in a pitch black world? x)

Stephanie ♥

Boredom causes sleepiness

I like sleeping. I love it a lot.

Today I woke up to my alarm clock at 9.30am on the dot. I felt happy and accomplished. I love the feeling of having a long day ahead to do things I want. Well I didn't last long. I get tired real easily, so I slept at 12.30pm. How pathetic. And woke up at 4pm. There. One day gone.

Tomorrow I intend to go celebrate Ching Nee's birthday with her at Mid Valley. I am happy about it. But I don't know what should I get her for a present. Headache.

I guess this should mean no studying tomorrow.

I WISH.

My life's pretty boring this week. But this boringness is nice. Quite, I must say. Because I feel free.

But this boringness makes my blog appear boring too. Sigh.

Till next time~!

Pyramid outing & 吓到笑

[c=47]yao jie[/c=63] says:
helllo

šѡεѬнапѝε ⢥ my display name's all fucked up. says:
hiiiiiii

[c=47]yao jie[/c=63] says:
hiiiiiiiiiii

šѡεѬнапѝε ⢥ my display name's all fucked up. says:
hahahaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa

šѡεѬнапѝε ⢥ my display name's all fucked up. says:
so how r uuuuuuuuuu

[c=47]yao jie[/c=63] says:
faaaaaiiiiiiiiiiinnnnnnnneeeeeeeee

[c=47]yao jie[/c=63] says:
thhhaaaaaaaannnnnnnkkkk yyoooooouuuuuuuu

šѡεѬнапѝε ⢥ my display name's all fucked up. says:
lolllllllll

šѡεѬнапѝε ⢥ my display name's all fucked up. says:
how was ur day?


Hahaha. I know that I am lame lah.

I had an awesome day. Awesome doesn't even come close. Hehe.

I feel accomplished. And I have a Lee Min-Ho folder to prove it.

But I'd spent over a hundred bucks today. But still less than RM150 lah.

RM3 for lunch at Pyramid. Had fried chicken, mushroom soup, chocolate mint shake, iced lemon tea and a little lasagne and macaroni. Not bad, eh?

Purchased my dress already. I FEEL SO GOOD, MAN.


Yesterday Miaw and I celebrated KuJiWan's birthday after school. We went to Mid Valley without him in Yuee Sun's car. Met up with him and friends (Jia Ler and Cheng Yeh) and went for a movie (after two lunch sessions xD). I learned how to eat raw salmon (doesn't mean I like it -- I prefer the soy sauce part) and I ravenously dug into Big Apple Donuts. Miaw's donut made her mouth look like a cave. Yes, the teeth too.

The movie was horrifying. Thank god I didn't get any nightmares. Its called 吓到笑. Walao its so scary wei. Always got ghost here and there. The guys were thoroughly amused though. VERY mind boggling.


I supposed yesterday afternoon and today were to make up for the previous stressful exam days (especially chemistry).

Now I need not worry about Wai Yeen's birthday gift already. Us 3 chipped in to buy a Quiksilver-notebook pouch-whatchamacallit-thingy for him. Kawan indeed! He will have to love it. In fact, he already is loving it, I presume.

Shopping is definitely better than movies. Still, I think that Miaw and I had way more fun than the guys. Sorry la sorry la. We'll make up for it next time. There WILL be a next time, I promise :)

I believe in shopping therapy. I already feel rejuvenated and happy. My endorphins are filled to the brim and overflowing, maybe. I bought these really cool nail art pens that I can draw with too! On my nails! I love drawing on my nails. I love drawing, full stop. And buying those nail art pens had gotten me my Lee Min-Ho folder. Too bad they don't have Kim Bum folders. But Lee Min-Ho is a good enough substitute.

Ha ha.

I'm hungry, though. Raw salmon sounds good right now...

Stephanie ♥

Chemistry is the pits

So dead, so dead.

I couldn't do chemistry at all. I felt super negative even before the exam, so when I got the paper I really couldn't care less at that point. Sleep, sleep. This is SO not me. And anyway, I wouldn't be surprised to flunk this subject. Again.

CHEMISTRY IS THE PITS.

No doubt.


And as for add maths, it can go right into the toilet bowl too.

I suck at school. I really don't know what am I gonna do in future. I'm neither brilliant nor talented in any field whatsoever. And I feel like my life on Earth is pretty pointless.

If I'd placed a lot of importance in today's papers, I'd cry FOR SURE.

Pessimism is eating at me, and the failure I am am succumbing towards it. Told ya'll I sucked.

Tomorrow's papers I dread. And more chemistry just feels like life sentence. Multiply it by nine lives. THAT IS HOW BAD IT SUCKS.


Goodbye. I'm retiring to my hole.

Oooh, Arabian!

Its fun talking to people you don't know in real life.
This is part of the conversation I had with the Arabian ;)

اللـــــولي says:
But I loved you from my heart

اللـــــولي says:
I liked to talk to you

šњεѬнапєε ⢥ my display name's all fucked up. says:
sure u do

šњεѬнапєε ⢥ my display name's all fucked up. says:
but u dont love me from ur heart

šњεѬнапєε ⢥ my display name's all fucked up. says:
tats bullshit bcos u don't even noe who i am

šњεѬнапєε ⢥ my display name's all fucked up. says:
when i do plastic surgery in future i will show u my photo

šњεѬнапєε ⢥ my display name's all fucked up. says:
then you will love me


MSN is so fun! xD

Stephanie ♥

Not studying for trials =X

Hello, its been a while since I'd last updated.

I'm currently having my chemistry book open but I'm staring at the computer, actually.

Just noticed the birthday post Miaw wrote xD
Woops!

Talk about late, late, late. Haha I found a possible Prince Charming but we haven't talked yet (Yes, there's always that hopeful yet). And I'm not sure he is aware of my existence. He is not Kim Sang Bum, for your information. Although I may have gushed about him for a month or so and saved his photos into my computer. What an eye candy he is! (Kim Sang Bum lah. And that potential Prince Charming too.)

I AM SO SO OUTDATED. I feel a little ashamed. I haven't been catching up on the news lately due to the exams. And following The Star Online on twitter doesn't help much either. Because I am too lazy to read full articles and it is really annoying receiving multiple tweets about NEWS every minute.

I think I will change my birthday wish.

I want is to pass Chemistry and Add Maths very badly!

Joyce dear, I don't know why you put so much pressure on yourself during exams. Especially about sejarah. I find that unfathomable. I mean, you had tips, right? And we all know that we should always rely on tips for sejarah. Or fail the subject. Ha ha.

Tomorrow's papers are most possibly the hardest for me. And what am I doing now? Blogging and pretending to study. I can win the Oscars already. I had just finished Where Rainbows End for the second time around today. Its a beautiful book with a heart warming story that reduced me to tears both times.

I know, sentimental is SO out. So sue me.

Over my unproductive weekend, I've been teaching my sister how to write prettier words and watching Hong Kong dramas. The latest Korean drama does not interest me much. 每天每夜, that is. I really don't like watching big sized people on television. Slightly overweight is also not acceptable. I like things beautiful and perfect. So I hate myself too, but let's not discuss it right now.

Restaurant City is under maintenance. Pfft. I have physics tuition later. And chemistry exam tomorrow. Bad, baaad.

Last time I knew this Austrian guy through msn (actually he's pretty hot, too bad he's younger than me by a YEAR) and now this Saudi Arabian is chatting me up. How odd. I don't even know this person's gender, I can't read this person's display name, and I can't get this person's english and I hope he gets Malaysia's geographical position from my explanation (below Thailand in Asia!). I hope its not a 100 year old hamsap apek though. Freaky thought.

Aiyo I have so much more to say. But there's still a few more days till our weeklong break. Woots! That certainly calls for celebration :D

Stephanie ♥

会呼吸的痛 – 梁静茹

会呼吸的痛 – 梁静茹

在东京铁塔 第一次眺望
看灯火模仿 坠落的星光
我终于到达 但却更悲伤
一个人完成 我们的梦想

你总说 时间还很多 你可以等我
以前我不懂得 未必明天 就有以后

想念是会呼吸的痛 它活在我身上所有角落
哼你爱的歌会痛 看你的信会痛 连沉默也痛

遗憾是会呼吸的痛 它流在血液中来回滚动
后悔不贴心会痛 恨不懂你会痛 想见不能见最痛

没看你脸上 张扬过哀伤
那是种多么 寂寞的倔强
你拆了城墙 让我去流浪
在原地等我 把自己捆绑

你没说 你也会软弱 需要倚赖我
我就装不晓得 自由移动 自我地过

想念是会呼吸的痛 它活在我身上所有角落
哼你爱的歌会痛 看你的信会痛 连沉默也痛

遗憾是会呼吸的痛 它流在血液中来回滚动
后悔不贴心会痛 恨不懂你会痛 想见不能见最痛

我发誓不再说谎了 多爱你就会抱你多紧的
我的微笑都假了 灵魂像飘浮着 你在就好了

我发誓不让你等候 陪你做想做的无论什么
我越来越像贝壳 怕心被人触碰 你回来那就好了

能重来那就好了


You can call it infatuation ;)

I've been listening to her songs since primary school.
Guess no one knew that.


Physics wasn't as good as I'd hoped for. Trial paper is supposed to be easier, for goodness' sake! The first page sucked. My calculations all went kaput. I hope that my essay will make up for it. I did the radioactive and logic gate essay question, the exact oppostie of what majority chose.

I had a good laugh over Jared's miserable copying antics. He couldn't read Meng Kit's paper (but I could and I sat behind him and Meng Kit beside him xD), so he tried to take a photo of it. But lady luck just wasn't on his side, because everytime the teacher would turn around at the second he was about to snap a photo. Ha ha!

And Miaw, you must be happy that logic gates could most possibly raise your grades, and hopefully your sifu here will score in that portion too x)


P.S. Looking for a sejarah study buddy over the weekend. Anyone?

P.P.S. My sejarah is not THAT bad okay. *ahem MIAWKAIFOONGWAIYEEN*

Stephanie ♥

09.09.09 ♥

Today is my birthday!

09.09.09
is a lovely date, no? :D

Received two presents today, one from Wai Yeen dear and another from Joyce. How thoughtful of them despite the exams :)

And I actually liked them (the presents). I LOVED THEM. I am usually so picky that I disgust even myself. So like my mom says, money would be the best gift for people like me. But I like surprises too! Well, just pleasant ones, I guess.

During recess I went around all form five classes asking people to wish me happy birthday. Before Ee May could even utter a word, I had already told her very loudly to wish me happy birthday. She said that I'd potong-ed her steam.

SORRY LOR.

And hor and hor, I get really annoyed with people who act dumb. People like -- nevermind, I won't reveal names. I'll be generous today. Just today.

For god's sake, I'd hinted so obviously already, so just go ahead and wish me lah! Its just the birthday wishes that I wanna collect because I believe that well wishes hold some kind of magic. Don't ask me to explain further. Its a personal believe.

Last year on this day I went to Delifrance Mid Valley which Ru Jun absolutely loathed. And Kimberley's balloon is still in my room. It lasted for a whole year! Fancy that.

I had a nightmare yesterday. On my birthday, I get a nightmare. Gee, I hope that its not some kind of omen. Real bad omen. Because I woke up sweating and frightened. I didn't even dare look at my reflection in the mirror unless the light was switched on first. It was so scary, I don't even wanna be reminded of it.

Even so, I had entertained (yeah right) more like bored Miaw, Kai Foong and Nick out of their wits by telling them about my nightmare. I always tell people about my dreams. There was once I'd dreamt about Joyce, who was -- oh well. Its a stale dream already.

My Chinese paper today 可以 ! It wasn't as bad as I had initially dreaded. Because I studied. Ha! I did everything I could in my power to make sure that this day will be smooth running, because it holds plenty of meaning for me.

I can't wait till dinner tonight! Pizza is in store for me. Hee. It has been aeons since I'd last sank teeth into a pizza. And there will be no birthday party (duh). My parents are not made of money. Every single cent counts now :/

Ahh, anyway I'll continue being happy happy happy!
Gosh, my cheeks hurt from smiling.

I'm listening to my super duper playlist right now!
I slept to Jay Chou, woke up to Chris Daughtry, came back from school listening to 梁静茹 and am enjoying SS501 and K-Pop.

What an amazing day!


P.S. You can still wish me happy birthday! Ha ha!

Stephanie ♥

Birthday countdown: 1 more day!

You know what ranks real high on my make-my-day list?

Being greeted with a clean, fresh towel after a bath. Its one of the simple pleasures I enjoy. And, mind you, I don't usually enjoy simple stuff ;D

Today I was really, really happy. God knows why. I slept at about 1am last night (after tossing and turning sleeplessly for an hour) and woke up at 4.30am. Yet, when I set foot in school, I felt -- rejuvenated. Isn't it amazing? An absolute miracle, I'd say.

However, if I could just chance upon someone... it would really make me far happier. Ha ha. Someone.

After school I went to the library to revise my Chinese. I saw this girl from tuition but we didn't acknowledge each other's presence. In fact, I could barely notice her in her school uniform. I don't know why am I rattling on about someone I've never talked to. Oh, I remember now why am I talking about her.

Because she is very pretty.

It is really rare to see beautiful people. It is like chancing upon a rare gem in a pile of gravel. That hard. She is of Indian national and is tall and curvy. I would love to look like that. In fact, I'd give almost anything to look like that. And I haven't even started on her facial features yet. Huge eyes, framed with lashes that pointed to the sky (SO unlike mine which are really droopy and measures 1.1cm at maximum) and much coveted double eyelids! Even her nose is perfect. It is tall, straight and balances out her facial features.

I tell you, should I look in the mirror one day and feel disgusted with what I see, I will be compelled to perform plastic surgery. I am serious.

Am sounding a teensy bit like a jealous brat. I don't really like myself for this, but -- I can't help it.

Usually I tackle my English paper by doing the directed writing part first, because inspiration doesn't come so fast. I am starting to harbour a mild dislike towards the single word essay question in the continuous writing portion. Because I usually hate the titles that come with it. Admittedly, I am not creative enough to twist and manipulate it into something totally original due to the lack of time and stuff bla bla bla.

In this paper, the title was "Choices". Gosh, I rolled my eyes reading it. All I could think of was shopping, shopping and shopping. Is this discount rack better or that pile more worth a second glance? Ha ha. This is so shallow. I feel so shallow but whatever.

BM, ha! I really get inspiration going to the washroom. I am gonna do that more often. Sorry I couldn't help you, Yuee Sun. I didn't have more than a clue than you did. Am hoping, almost to the verge of praying that LimSerKien will be lenient on us. It is the last time she'd get to mark our papers, after all.

Please, God.

What Wai Yeen said about me not having to worry about my BM is plain bullshit. I do alright in exams with the right amount of luck. And opportunity. I am SO not gonna elaborate.

Oh, and my blog won't be on hiatus. I will blog whenever I feel like it. So yeah.

To whoever who is reading this, good luck in your finals ;)


P.S. I just remembered. Tomorrow is my birthday! Whee~

Stephanie ♥

Room feng shui motivates nerding

This morning was heavenly. I woke up at 10am !!


I love this week's weather so far! Its simply glorious!


I hope that it'll stay cool and cloudy :)


No rain too, preferrably.


And definitely no sun. I hate the sun. The tropical climate in Malaysia is just too hot and humid for words. Many years back it was still tolerable... Well, this is global warming, I tell you.


My life is too boring. All I can talk about is the freaking weather. And my failing study plans. Which isn't very nice to talk about. My other table in my room is cleared (all stuff dumped into a big box -- Joyce's method) so the feng shui in my room is altered.


I WILL BE ABLE TO STUDY FROM NOW ON
since the back of my chair no longer faces the door.


Admittedly, I am superstitious. Carrefour Mid Valley is in for it too, seeing that they have opened umbrellas IN their outlet. Its indoors, for god's sake! Don't open your umbrellas indoors! Indoors in my definition is being surrounded by four walls and a ceiling.


Of late, worldwide news is boring with a capital B. Golden statue pulak. That guy is pretty dense for believing that anyone would pay him RM100 to get rid of a golden statue. Freaky woman.


However, Sir's life is definitely very interesting these days! I wonder if he'd really name his baby Tiger Lee after the legendary golfer Tiger Woods...
Ha ha!


Oklah, its Sejarah time. Goodbye and happy studying, people!

Stephanie ♥

SPM Timetable

DO YOU WANT IT?

SPM TIMETABLE !

Yeah, that is the SPM timetable according to the

Lembaga Peperiksaan Malaysia's official website.

Our last paper, which is Chinese, falls on the 14th December 2009,

which coincides with a Monday.

I hope that this version is the final and actual one, but please don't blame me if it is inaccurate in any way!

I have nothing to blog about these days, hence this short, short update :/

Have a nice day anyway!

The weather today is awesome! I'm still basking in it :)

Stephanie ♥

Dysfunctional photoshop SUCKS

Gosh, I am so annoyed.

I found this really, really nice skin which I intended to further edit for my liking, and Photoshop wouldn't work for me. Photoshop is, like, suppressing me. I don't get inspirational all of a sudden, so when I do, I act on it.

I don't know why, but I am super annoyed. Especially after I was forced to shut down Photoshop for the third time.

By the way, I'm super bored.

If I had to continue studying I'd pull out my hair.
Mind you, I don't have much left due to my salt addiction.

In short,
I WILL GET DERANGED SOON.

No band, no life = boredom.

I can't believe that I'd actually said that.

And I thought that I would be pleased to be released from its hold after all these years. Boy, how wrong was I.

Anyway, I want to design another blogskin. Not make it from scratch. That's a fool's work. I like the results I produce, which is a good thing for me. But I really should make some headway with my books. I am NOT getting anywhere.

Sitting here and complaining wouldn't get me anywhere. I'm gonna start soon! My dysfunctional Photoshop will not be a deterrent. Ha!

Stephanie ♥

Pink

Pretty things come in pink.

*drool*

Isn't this bathroom just chic?

Here's a really cool basin cabinet with similar motives.

The minimalist bathroom ;)

The lighting would make up for any imperfections in here!

Don't you think that this pink lampshade would add
a touch of softness to any room?

This dining room is classic. But the table! :(

This simple dining area is oh-so-charming!

Pink does bring out the best in you.

For the first time, brown looks eye-pleasing.

I imagine you could only find this at some posh hotel. How elegant!

This tiny area looks so inviting I can't help but want it all to myself!

Stephanie ♥

Joyce-ness :D

I had another great day :D

I'd spent it with Joyce, Miaw and Ching Nee.

Studying should rank the highest in my list of priorities right now,
but apparently, having fun still takes first place x)

Gosh. I really, really should take a reality check.

And by the way, Twitter is seriously cool. I tweet all the time! Its so fun.

I like Joyce's blogskin. Probably because I helped in making it xD
The original version and the used one differs A LOT.

My dad wants to start a website, and he is constantly bugging me to help him with the HTML. Wth.

I'm almost reaching the end of my form five Chapter 9 for Sejarah. So much for my high speed typing. Yes, I type out my notes nicely so that they're easy to read. Even if I don't study, I try.

Tomorrow I'm going to the library again. Seeing so many other form fives studying their asses off will make me feel pressured. Hopefully that will be good enough motivation for a lazy bum like me!

These days I am so optimistically happy that I don't feel like myself.

I am sad, pessimistic; the-sky-is-falling-down kinda person. Therefore I have every reason to feel weird. And no, I'm not happy because I'm falling in love. I'm happier than I've ever been for a long, long time.

Perhaps its due to too much exposure to Joyce. Ha ha. Or maybe, its because I'm not seeing *her till school starts!

Stephanie ♥

Joyce's blog

This newbie thinks that I am very pro in all the HTML stuff wor...

Actually, its all down to practice, practice and practice. So I am not as pro as she thinks. I do often have this problem of people overestimating me! How aggravating. Hmm... just imagine, you're really not up to par on something, and everyone goes like

"Wow, you're excellent! Wonderful! Marvelous!"

Well, you certainly do not need to picture how embarassing the outcome would be! :/

Oh, and I don't need those chocolate covered praises la. Pun intended!
Ha ha.


Presenting to you,

JOYCE TAN'S PERSONAL BLOG !!


Now she is definitely worth more than a glance. In fact, everyone is worth that much. Or more. But in her case, definitely yes.

My day was brilliant :)

Thanks to her.

Stephanie ♥

AEOM Jamuan =(

Today, we had a jamuan to celebrate the success of AEOM 2009. It was held in the school hall.

Initially, I'd looked forward to it.

We were given the selection of 3 dishes, mayonaise not included, and rice.

Dessert was jelly, and beverage was orange juice.

In short, it wasn't very nice.

I ate two fishballs and a few spoons of rice. And that was very good, considering that poor vegetarians like Ai Ginn and Ee May had absolutely no option.

The dessert was... hmm. Saying that we played with our food is an understatement. We were concocting new recipes, literally.

And even frugal Yun Li gave up on trying to finish her jelly. After some work, it was magically transformed to paste. With a jam-like texture. Interesting, eh?

Well, the point of this jamuan is to acknowledge the hard work and effort we'd put in. I should have done an Elizabeth and just disappear altogether :/

I NEED NO ACKNOWLEDGEMENT.

Well, not in this way.

To be honest, I'm not that bad lah.

I tried to tie it down to the minimum. My complaints, or dissatisfaction (however you like it), I mean.

The good thing is, I saved money on lunch. It'll go into my prom fund.


P.S. My optimism deserves a gold medal.

Stephanie ♥

THIS IS THE REAL NICHOLAS.
The Nicholas you are accustomed to seeing is, well, not him.

Fact is, people are more daring online. And, don't doubt me. I am not lying in this post.

Behold...

Nick....@......KOF says:

trend setter is my true calling X)

-

Nick....@......KOF says:

after careful observation

Nick....@......KOF says:

i find myself to be hotter....

(he is comparing himself to my sweetheart, Kim Bum!)

STEPHANIE ♥ 김상범 says:

OH GOD WILL YOU PLEASE TAKE A LOOK IN THE MIRROR

Nick....@......KOF says:

too bad...

Nick....@......KOF says:

the mirror broke

Nick....@......KOF says:

i was too hot for it

Stephanie ♥

I HAVE TWITTER !! That makes me in. Muahahahaha.

Let's kindly ignore the fact that I am still a twitter noob. But I'll figure my way around. It's something like Plurk after all. Just that Plurk isn't that popular and you can't follow hot, hot celebrities on Plurk too... well, because they don't Plurk.

How sad. Anyway I still have twitter!

Tweet tweet tweet tweet tweet. Tweet!

I hope I'm not too annoying. Ha ha.

Stephanie ♥

YOOHOO!

I'm at home now. I'm not studying. I'm not doing anything potentially beneficial for myself. I'm... wasting time.

Quoting Nicholas:

I need the mental preparation for Chinese tuition later.

Well in my case, that statement is pretty erroneous because I don't have Chinese tuition! I do have accounts tuition, though. Which I haven't completed my homework.

I'm craving for McDonald's later. Spicy Chicken McDeluxe. Yum. So much for wanting to fit into my prom dress (refer to my private blog post). I have the weakest willpower EVER. I mean, I was determined to cut down on my junk food intake...

Oh forget about it. One day wouldn't harm. Right? Right??

:D

I'm gonna find something to eat now. Bye!

Stephanie ♥

I'm finally going public!

Well, semi-public. Because I will still post up my personal posts at my private blog. The entrance fee to my private blog is... exceedingly high. Prove your worthiness and I'll consider :)

Once, I'd really, really detest people who had private blogs. It was frustrating, annoying and irritatingly exasperating. Then I decided to retaliate by having my own private blog. Boy, it did me plenty of good. I especially loved bitching in there, not that I'm a very bitchy person -- its just that I'll usually feel better after a long round of complaining. Which leads me to my next point.

I don't know why am I setting up this blog. Maybe its to convince Joyce to get a blog of her own. Its about time. Hmm, I also felt like sharing some things with like, more people. Like that time Miaw Fen farted in class.

Okay that was a joke la. Ha ha.

I'd like to share my obsession over Kim Bum. But, I'm kinda over him. Still, I'll treat you to him! Ta-da!

So now that you know who he is, you'll agree with me that he is fantastic! In the looks department. He used to make me feel, you know, gooey. Just so you know. And his smile is heart-stoppingly gorgeous.

But I don't speak Korean. I cannot even comprehend the simplest sentence. The Korean words I know are the names of the actors IN the drama.

How pathetic.

These days I am into Restaurant City, Chinese songs, Facebook photo commenting and studying. I tell you, I'm turning over a new leaf. Its fine if you don't believe me. Because sometimes I feel the same way too.

P.S. Get a blog, Joyce!

Stephanie ♥