COME BACK PLEASE.
I BEG YOU.
:(
TUMMY TUMMY,
PLEASE DISAPPEAR.
._.
Monday, June 4, 2012
Sunday, June 3, 2012
LAG
MY COMPUTER SPEED.
CRY T.T
Internal review tomorrow!
Presentation board, AutoCAD drawings, manual renderings, etc. in progress~
Racing against time.
Sunday, May 27, 2012
My work progress!
Ok, I'm feeling rather self satisfied at my trial and error result of my AutoCAD 3D~
I wish I had the time to Google up how to render and stuff, but for now, this is good enough, and I'm happy with it! xD
Time to show off!
This is the overall view of my Cafe Gallery
From the rear end it looks something like this
Close up of the interior
The price to pay
I see strands of hair on my hands after finger combing my hair gently.
I check my reflection and see a face with acne scars -- an angry red against my natural skin tone. Weary eyes that just can't open as wide as they could. The light telltale lines of wrinkles forming on my forehead.
My body is decorated with tiny yet swollen, red patches; a small press with my fingertips brings pain. Pimples.
My emotional state -- unbalanced. The mounting stress will result in teary breakdowns when it gets overbearing.
I have to forgo my karaoke session tomorrow too because I need to do so many things. This is sad. I could do with a little relaxing.
Anyway, let's see my schedule.
Monday - to draw 2 sections and elevations for my project, submission of building science CD
Tuesday - submission of history journal, comprising of furniture sketches and notes spanning across 12 weeks, submission of history model & coffee table book & report (all incomplete wtf)
Wednesday - submission of drawing portfolio, drawing sketchbook and CD
Thursday - presentation board draft, submission of finalized and complete plan, 2 sections and 2 elevations
I feel that my quest of perfection doesn't really stand in my way of getting things done, not when there is so much to do that I can't possibly bother to filter and upgrade anything.
Tomorrow I have to finish my remaining section drawing, insert all the appropriate labellings, start my history journal (yes, START), print out the drawings, make a model of an Art Deco room and also a coffee table book for history, and if possible complete that abhorrent history report that has been on my to-do list for months.
And I need a good rest really badly. I've been tormented all week long by paranoia, and would just wake up at intervals in my sleep worrying about my work. This is a bad sign. I can't sleep. At least, not enough to keep me going.
I need to keep it up for one more month to face my external review. In 2 weeks time I'll be sitting for my finals. I have no idea what is going on in Building Science, so god help me with that. Building Materials is a joke. We ceased having formal lessons after 3 weeks, so I can't really say I learned anything. My design is in progress, and feels fairly good to me. That's a consolation I guess. God knows what I'll score for drawing. I don't care anymore, much as I'd like to maintain my CGPA.
Sigh. I need time, lots of it.
I check my reflection and see a face with acne scars -- an angry red against my natural skin tone. Weary eyes that just can't open as wide as they could. The light telltale lines of wrinkles forming on my forehead.
My body is decorated with tiny yet swollen, red patches; a small press with my fingertips brings pain. Pimples.
My emotional state -- unbalanced. The mounting stress will result in teary breakdowns when it gets overbearing.
I have to forgo my karaoke session tomorrow too because I need to do so many things. This is sad. I could do with a little relaxing.
Anyway, let's see my schedule.
Monday - to draw 2 sections and elevations for my project, submission of building science CD
Tuesday - submission of history journal, comprising of furniture sketches and notes spanning across 12 weeks, submission of history model & coffee table book & report (all incomplete wtf)
Wednesday - submission of drawing portfolio, drawing sketchbook and CD
Thursday - presentation board draft, submission of finalized and complete plan, 2 sections and 2 elevations
I feel that my quest of perfection doesn't really stand in my way of getting things done, not when there is so much to do that I can't possibly bother to filter and upgrade anything.
Tomorrow I have to finish my remaining section drawing, insert all the appropriate labellings, start my history journal (yes, START), print out the drawings, make a model of an Art Deco room and also a coffee table book for history, and if possible complete that abhorrent history report that has been on my to-do list for months.
And I need a good rest really badly. I've been tormented all week long by paranoia, and would just wake up at intervals in my sleep worrying about my work. This is a bad sign. I can't sleep. At least, not enough to keep me going.
I need to keep it up for one more month to face my external review. In 2 weeks time I'll be sitting for my finals. I have no idea what is going on in Building Science, so god help me with that. Building Materials is a joke. We ceased having formal lessons after 3 weeks, so I can't really say I learned anything. My design is in progress, and feels fairly good to me. That's a consolation I guess. God knows what I'll score for drawing. I don't care anymore, much as I'd like to maintain my CGPA.
Sigh. I need time, lots of it.
Wednesday, May 23, 2012
Hello, blog.
It has been awhile.
I'm not living much of a life these days. I don't have time to eat -- I just take gigantic bites of my food or a few mouthfuls and leave it at there. How I wish that someone would quickly invent a pill that would supply me with sufficient amount of nutrients to make me full instantly so I could save precious time. Sleep has become an extravagant luxury, and that makes me wish fervently that I could have a magic pill that would keep me awake and alert for days so I could go on about my assignments without feeling painfully guilty when I take a nap.
I'm left with an afterthought after a sequence of recent happenings in my life.
My perfectionist trait is both my strongest asset and ultimate downfall.
I had a bitter taste of it today when I was rushing to complete my Building Science report. I was running out of time and would most likely be very late for my Building Materials presentation, which was of utmost importance, and carried a significant weightage in my semester. Well, to cut a long story short, I was embarrassingly late, and an encounter with a particularly egregious person before that left me in an absolutely ghastly mood when I reached school. I was *this* close to having a fit.
Temper, temper, do behave yourself.
I see the need to vent it out first before it consumes me and eats me up inside. Right now, I am but a shell of the person I used to be. I am a work-spewing machine -- desperately sleep deprived, exhausted, and nearing my wits' end. And the saddest part is, there is no time to rest. I have two options -- to push forward or give up entirely. And I don't give up.
You know, I suppose my life could be much easier if I didn't have such high expectations of myself. But who am I kidding? That simply isn't who I am. I am an achiever. I am always in top form. I firmly believe that hard work, effort, perseverance and resolution will see me reaping the fruits of my labour. The seeds I'd carefully planted and will sow in due time. And I will keep striving for better. Nothing I do will ever be perfect in my eyes, but my goal is to get closer to perfection each time, to improve, to succeed, to get my satisfaction and ultimately, happiness.
If I live long enough to enjoy it. I am feeling a tad cynical now.
It has been awhile.
I'm not living much of a life these days. I don't have time to eat -- I just take gigantic bites of my food or a few mouthfuls and leave it at there. How I wish that someone would quickly invent a pill that would supply me with sufficient amount of nutrients to make me full instantly so I could save precious time. Sleep has become an extravagant luxury, and that makes me wish fervently that I could have a magic pill that would keep me awake and alert for days so I could go on about my assignments without feeling painfully guilty when I take a nap.
I'm left with an afterthought after a sequence of recent happenings in my life.
My perfectionist trait is both my strongest asset and ultimate downfall.
I had a bitter taste of it today when I was rushing to complete my Building Science report. I was running out of time and would most likely be very late for my Building Materials presentation, which was of utmost importance, and carried a significant weightage in my semester. Well, to cut a long story short, I was embarrassingly late, and an encounter with a particularly egregious person before that left me in an absolutely ghastly mood when I reached school. I was *this* close to having a fit.
Temper, temper, do behave yourself.
I see the need to vent it out first before it consumes me and eats me up inside. Right now, I am but a shell of the person I used to be. I am a work-spewing machine -- desperately sleep deprived, exhausted, and nearing my wits' end. And the saddest part is, there is no time to rest. I have two options -- to push forward or give up entirely. And I don't give up.
You know, I suppose my life could be much easier if I didn't have such high expectations of myself. But who am I kidding? That simply isn't who I am. I am an achiever. I am always in top form. I firmly believe that hard work, effort, perseverance and resolution will see me reaping the fruits of my labour. The seeds I'd carefully planted and will sow in due time. And I will keep striving for better. Nothing I do will ever be perfect in my eyes, but my goal is to get closer to perfection each time, to improve, to succeed, to get my satisfaction and ultimately, happiness.
If I live long enough to enjoy it. I am feeling a tad cynical now.
Tuesday, February 7, 2012
Stay, February
Another long weekend :)
Life is seriously awesome for the month of February. I love work, enjoy the company I keep, bask in the freedom I'm given, get to keep my angpaus (for the first time in my life) and am learning loads! Real life working experience really is different. Comparing the me now and the me back in December, I feel that I have made miles of progress. Psychologically I've changed a lot too. My perception of things has altered greatly, to an extent that sometimes scares me when I think of it. It's kind of hard to describe, but it's a personal journey that I undertook and I understand. I've grown wiser, I hope. Education wise I've actually picked up AutoCAD from scratch and am actually capable of simple drafting! Everything that used to baffle me now works splendidly. It's amazing, really, when I think about what I didn't know and what I do now.
I absolutely dread the arrival of March. I swear you'd have to drag me back to Limkokwing. My past experiences there make me cringe. Education has never been so... futile. Many lecturers are sub par, and newly graduates are allocated entire classes to teach themselves under the rank "tutor". Supposedly only those with at least a Masters degree should be able to handle classes of that level. We're in our degree, hello! Why on earth would we want people with a degree to teach us? They are underqualified, having no actual working experience apart from their internship.
Oh gosh I really should stop ranting about my university. I could go on and on, and no action would be taken because they turn a deaf ear to your complaints, or ask you to file your complaint at a certain department, who would direct you to another department, and you'll go on a merry-go-round ride that exhausts you. And at the end of the day, the various departments in the university would say "We did not receive the information from XXX department.", and the story ends. By that time, you'd be too tired to care. It's just so convenient to pass the ball to others and keep your hands clean. Miscommunication errors are just so handy!
I want February to last forever and ever :(
Learning should be like how I spent my holidays -- relaxing, enjoyable and self motivating! Not like in university where you do every assignment reluctantly, cursing and swearing when the due dates approach, suffer from hair loss and terrible skin complexion and feel the frustration mount from coursemates who always try to interrogate you and check on your assignment scores (yeah some people are lifeless just like that).
Also, I'm doing a personal research project, which I hope to complete before the end of my holidays. I really hope that I'll have the discipline to finish it!
Okay, so that's all for now. Till next time!
Life is seriously awesome for the month of February. I love work, enjoy the company I keep, bask in the freedom I'm given, get to keep my angpaus (for the first time in my life) and am learning loads! Real life working experience really is different. Comparing the me now and the me back in December, I feel that I have made miles of progress. Psychologically I've changed a lot too. My perception of things has altered greatly, to an extent that sometimes scares me when I think of it. It's kind of hard to describe, but it's a personal journey that I undertook and I understand. I've grown wiser, I hope. Education wise I've actually picked up AutoCAD from scratch and am actually capable of simple drafting! Everything that used to baffle me now works splendidly. It's amazing, really, when I think about what I didn't know and what I do now.
I absolutely dread the arrival of March. I swear you'd have to drag me back to Limkokwing. My past experiences there make me cringe. Education has never been so... futile. Many lecturers are sub par, and newly graduates are allocated entire classes to teach themselves under the rank "tutor". Supposedly only those with at least a Masters degree should be able to handle classes of that level. We're in our degree, hello! Why on earth would we want people with a degree to teach us? They are underqualified, having no actual working experience apart from their internship.
Oh gosh I really should stop ranting about my university. I could go on and on, and no action would be taken because they turn a deaf ear to your complaints, or ask you to file your complaint at a certain department, who would direct you to another department, and you'll go on a merry-go-round ride that exhausts you. And at the end of the day, the various departments in the university would say "We did not receive the information from XXX department.", and the story ends. By that time, you'd be too tired to care. It's just so convenient to pass the ball to others and keep your hands clean. Miscommunication errors are just so handy!
I want February to last forever and ever :(
Learning should be like how I spent my holidays -- relaxing, enjoyable and self motivating! Not like in university where you do every assignment reluctantly, cursing and swearing when the due dates approach, suffer from hair loss and terrible skin complexion and feel the frustration mount from coursemates who always try to interrogate you and check on your assignment scores (yeah some people are lifeless just like that).
Also, I'm doing a personal research project, which I hope to complete before the end of my holidays. I really hope that I'll have the discipline to finish it!
Okay, so that's all for now. Till next time!
Wednesday, January 25, 2012
新年快乐！
I hope that life's treating everyone good :)
新的一年，新的开始~
I had a bit of a bumpy ride not too long ago, but all's well now I hope. The dragon year has arrived at long last! Meaning that my bunny year t-shirt will go out of style haha. I like that shirt with the 12 zodiac illustrations and glittering, gold bunnies. I like rabbits a lot! They're cute, cuddly and small. I like the way they twitch their noses and hop about. But the fact that they eat their poop kinda disgusts me even though it's natural for them.
Anyway I hope that this year will be a good year for my academics, my finances and love life. May there be lots of shopping that I need not pay for this year!
I just started my CNY shopping and I must say that I still haven't had enough of it! Oops? xD Yeah I'm getting greedy. Give me a penny and I'll want a pound. I'm only human! I have urges, and they are whispering in my ears all the time "Go shop go shop!".
I will make lots of money in future to cater to my shopping addiction. I am proud to say that despite my love for shopping, I still manage to save up a little. At least I won't have a zero balance bank account, or owe others money. I just live by that principle and life will be good.
But I think that I have to stop following all the technology and gadget news already. Those smartphones, laptops and tablets are looking more appealing the more I research on them. I want them all!!! NOOO!!! I feel like getting a tablet for reading e-books and surfing the internet. BUT. NO. I CAN'T. AND I WON'T. The Asus Transformer Prime looks awesome but the Kindle Fire comes with an attractive price tag.
Stop thinking about it!
This year I will charge ahead full force in my studies! I will strive to be the best and maintain my results. Though that will be kinda challenging seeing that I scored a perfect CGPA xD Okay perasan time over. Now I'm gonna be serious and list down what I expect of myself for this year.
新的一年，新的开始~
I had a bit of a bumpy ride not too long ago, but all's well now I hope. The dragon year has arrived at long last! Meaning that my bunny year t-shirt will go out of style haha. I like that shirt with the 12 zodiac illustrations and glittering, gold bunnies. I like rabbits a lot! They're cute, cuddly and small. I like the way they twitch their noses and hop about. But the fact that they eat their poop kinda disgusts me even though it's natural for them.
Anyway I hope that this year will be a good year for my academics, my finances and love life. May there be lots of shopping that I need not pay for this year!
I just started my CNY shopping and I must say that I still haven't had enough of it! Oops? xD Yeah I'm getting greedy. Give me a penny and I'll want a pound. I'm only human! I have urges, and they are whispering in my ears all the time "Go shop go shop!".
I will make lots of money in future to cater to my shopping addiction. I am proud to say that despite my love for shopping, I still manage to save up a little. At least I won't have a zero balance bank account, or owe others money. I just live by that principle and life will be good.
But I think that I have to stop following all the technology and gadget news already. Those smartphones, laptops and tablets are looking more appealing the more I research on them. I want them all!!! NOOO!!! I feel like getting a tablet for reading e-books and surfing the internet. BUT. NO. I CAN'T. AND I WON'T. The Asus Transformer Prime looks awesome but the Kindle Fire comes with an attractive price tag.
Stop thinking about it!
This year I will charge ahead full force in my studies! I will strive to be the best and maintain my results. Though that will be kinda challenging seeing that I scored a perfect CGPA xD Okay perasan time over. Now I'm gonna be serious and list down what I expect of myself for this year.
- I will be like a sponge and absorb everything! Every single piece of information and knowledge that is helpful for my future, that is!
- I will take extra initiative and learn more about sustainable and green buildings and renewable energy, since I intend to make it my specialization.
- I will look up things that are new to me and not just ignore the words as I read them. Mustn't continue that bad habit!
Just those 3. If I can follow through those 3 things, I will have done something already.
加油 to everyone!! Me especially!!!
Tuesday, January 17, 2012
泪光闪烁
I love this song ♥
夜 从天空悄悄滑落
任性地划着伤口
是谁呢 痛得那么沉默
我 以为把幸福上锁
能紧紧守护承诺
是谁呢 把窗推开 风卷走了爱
为你哭的泪 每一颗闪烁
坚定的路途也走得颠簸
头也不回 义无反顾 从不后悔深爱过
为你笑的泪 每一颗闪烁
‘Cause I love you so
最美的爱 不是紧握 我们曾拥有
夜 从天空悄悄滑落
任性地划着伤口
是谁呢 痛得那么沉默
我 以为把幸福上锁
能紧紧守护承诺
是谁呢 把窗推开 风卷走了爱
为你哭的泪 每一颗闪烁
坚定的路途也走得颠簸
头也不回 义无反顾 从不后悔深爱过
为你笑的泪 每一颗闪烁
‘Cause I love you so
最美的爱 不是紧握 我们曾拥有
当 心跌碎了以后
我还努力拼凑 你给的梦
为你哭的泪 每一颗闪烁
坚定的路途也走得颠簸
头也不回 义无反顾 从不后悔深深爱过
为你笑的泪 每一颗闪烁
‘Cause I love you so
最美的爱 不是紧握 我们曾拥有
开心或伤心也好，日子还是会一样的过去～
Trust me, I try not to be overly demanding. But what's a new year without new things, new thoughts and new experiences? Here's how I mapped out my emotional journey through life.
What I want of life right now is to make my own mistakes, explore the world, learn new things, seek new life adventures, and eventually grow as a person. I want to experience the ups and downs of it -- every single moment I am entitled to. I yearn to know desolateness, joy, fury and passion better, so I can welcome them as old friends when we meet once more. I want to be swept away by my emotions and cling on to my spring days for as long as possible. I crave the youth I am so desperately afraid of losing now. The years are catching up on me, and the balding patch on my head is there to remind me of it every single day.
I want to be the person I envisioned myself to be. Independent, strong-willed, determined and successful. I am still a long way from there, but I'm working on it. I will spread my wings and soar, not away from the life I love, but towards the future I dream of. For once, I want to be selfish and do everything solely for myself, without having to consider about the consequences of my actions. I'm living my life for me, and I'm only young once. Springtime doesn't last forever.
I have ambition, and I have hopes yet to be realised. Only time can tell where I'll go, but where I am right now feels right to me.
Wednesday, January 11, 2012
谢谢你们爱我的每个人
这首歌好感人，超有意思！我觉得自己再怎样也不会像 Selina 一样坚强。她的经历真的好让人心疼。这种事情不该在任何人的身上发生的。但她可以勇敢的走出逆境，就单凭这一点我已经好佩服她了……
Selina 如今已出嫁，幸福快乐了。我替她感到非常高兴！人经历过挫折就会真正懂得珍惜幸福。彩虹总在雨后出现!
Selina 的体验教了我几个人生大道理。我要向她学习如何在那么恶劣的环境下坚强、勇敢及努力重生。我要学习她在面对挫折时的意志力和奋斗精神。我得为我以下的人生而加油！
Tuesday, December 27, 2011
Merry Christmas!
I had a great week :)
Last Friday there was a gift exchange event at my office, and it was pretty fun! I got a beautiful Lamy Scribble mechanical pencil! Woots! It looks and feels great, and people were clamouring to exchange their gifts with me. But it's sitting comfortably in my room now hehe!
I have managed to complete 2 drawings on Friday alone! My speed is increasing, and I'm aiming for higher. Heehee~
Last Friday there was a gift exchange event at my office, and it was pretty fun! I got a beautiful Lamy Scribble mechanical pencil! Woots! It looks and feels great, and people were clamouring to exchange their gifts with me. But it's sitting comfortably in my room now hehe!
I have managed to complete 2 drawings on Friday alone! My speed is increasing, and I'm aiming for higher. Heehee~
Wednesday, December 21, 2011
Latest happenings
Woots, September baby! :)
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I'm doing an internship at an architectural/interior design firm at KL. It's my second week and 7th day there as of today! I'm getting in a lot of exercise and life's great, seriously. Taking the LRT to and fro from work is doing wonders for my stamina (and in due time, my legs, I hope!) and I hope to be fit and trim in no time! I can't wait to bid goodbye to my flabby thighs...maybe I should always take the stairs from now onwards. Hmm.
The best part of working life is you don't bring home any work! As soon as I step foot into my house, a wave of relief, contentment, relaxation and joy envelopes me all at once. It's amazing, really. When I was in college coming home meant little to me. Thoughts like "Shucks. No time for a nap." or "Crap! Submission is in a couple of days and I've only gotten THIS far?!" flash through my mind and they are immediately followed by resentment and anxiety, which almost always makes me bad tempered.
To cope with my internship, I sacrificed my part time tuition teaching job. I would miss it, but the experience I'm getting right now is to kill for. How many first semester students are as lucky as me (or as self motivated as I am -- and no matter how conceited that sounds, it is true to a certain extent) to actually find and get an internship? Not many. My classmates are either busy enjoying life or working to earn extra pocket money. But not me. I am "wise and humble", "industrious", "knowledgeable beyond my years" and "inspiring" after all! There goes my carefully concocted humility.
I'm getting PAID to learn AutoCAD, can you believe that? How awesome is it? But the work I do is tiring and extremely time consuming. I took 2 days average to complete an A1 plan at first, but now I'm getting my speed to around 1 day per drawing! I feel so pleased with my accomplishment.
Nevertheless, I know I could achieve more if I put my heart to it. I dawdle a lot in office, aimlessly browsing through my mobile Facebook app and checking my emails every hour or so. Haha I need to buck up man. I'm determined to make working life agree with me. We'll wait and see :)
Saturday, December 10, 2011
Things on Facebook that irk me
Incessant ad postings on my feed.
What are friends for? To help you click advertorials so you can earn more money, apparently. It's so good to exist for a purpose. I'm touched :')
Gruesome photos of exposed internal organs.
Save it. I don't see the point of sharing photos of accident victims. I log onto Facebook to relax and get a good laugh now and then, not to get grossed out by your gory photo postings. And there is no prove that by sharing such photos, you are helping those poor souls get donations for surgeries. Don't be such gullible fools. If you really have the heart to help, you'd volunteer at a shelter or organise fundraisers instead. These pathetic, misguided attempts at lending assistance to others ARE NOT WORKING. Again, save it.
Creepy photos of ghastly creatures that exist purely to give you nightmares.
Don't be so inconsiderate. You might give people heart attacks. I'm sure you do not want to be held accountable for their deaths.
My Birthday Calendar
What a blatant way to express how little you care for your friends. If it takes a calendar reminder for you to wish me happy birthday, I'd rather you didn't wish me at all. What happened to the traditional you're-so-special-that-I-made-the-effort-to-remember-your-birthday practice? Gone with the wind, apparently.
I may seem like a cynic here but I am in fact very, very annoyed and am merely seeking an outlet to vent my frustration. Do pardon me. And if you happen to have committed the aforementioned crimes in your lifetime, it is not too late to feel remorseful and promise to not do it again. Just saying.
Thursday, December 8, 2011
My Holiday Goals
Get an internship(already landed! Ta-da!)- Master Czardas (almost there but I need to work on the fingering for one section)
- Learn to play Mozart's Clarinet concerto in A major, K. 622 (which I will be playing on a B flat clarinet with the A clarinet score lol...major fail right? But playing it in B major will be so tiresome)
- Gain more knowledge about my academic related subjects
- Regrow my hair
- Get rid of those pimples!
- Earn some money
Do something worthwhile(My stint at Petrosains was pretty good xD)Read booksPlay a game(Sims Social! Nyahaha!)- Follow more I.T. news (not a problem hehe...I'm practically addicted to it)
- Listen to new songs
- Do some drawing? (I suspect I will not though)
- To not waste time
- Land a good paying job (again, who wants to learn piano? :D)
- Go on a shopping spree! (Must.Buy.Those.Pink.Shoes!)
- Practice what I learned in my makeup class (so far, fail fail fail...I totally suck at makeup despite being armed with Photoshop skills)
...to be continued.
Monday, December 5, 2011
My new blog header
It's been a while since I did anything with my blog, so I thought, why not?
My blog now showcases a new header that is both symbolic and meaningful to me. I have come a long way since high school graduation. This is a journey that I have made by my own choice; though how it turned out to be a never-ending uphill climb that I had never anticipated (not even in my wildest dreams!), I couldn't possibly know. Who would know what surprises life has in store for us?
Difficult as it may be, tough as it seems, it has been a major life lesson for me.
I learned that things are only gonna get harder, more challenging. That if events are to take a turn for the worse, they will.
I learned that no matter how hard I try, it is never gonna be enough.
I learned that one can only do so much.
And I learned that perseverance and diligence does get you somewhere. That if you push ahead and not give up, it is not a wasted effort.
And I survive by clinging on to the thread of hope that someday, when I cross the mountain, things will get better.
I'm trudging up, and however slow it appears to be, the knowledge that I'm moving forward and getting somewhere is still somewhat comforting to me. Here's to the end of the most demanding semester I've been through, and another league of my journey!
Saturday, November 26, 2011
Interior Architecture 141
The Page
Personal Shelter
Compact Living Home Studio
Presentation Boards
Material Board
Plans plans plans
I love them, I'm addicted to planning, and I swear by to-do lists.
But recently I'm swamped over by the amount of planning I need to do. It is much easier when you have a million things unchecked, because all you need to do then is to decide which to do first. But when you are facing the expanse of a 3 month holiday in front of you, things become different. To some people it doesn't matter, but to me, it should.
How many holidays have I let slip by, not being able to accomplish what I envisioned? I really hope not to make that mistake again. So far the first 3 days of my holidays were fairly productive, and I am immensely pleased with what I have achieved thus far. But I have this nagging feeling that the productivity won't last, and I really do dread that.
I've been sending out applications for part time jobs in hope of landing something that could fund my shopping addiction. I'm pretty broke now and my bank account balance has decreased drastically. That isn't comforting. And the fact that I won't be having any income for the month of November does not do much to cheer my spirits. But I am glad I took one month off -- I really am. It gave me time to focus on my studies and channel everything I have into it. I never noticed before, but I do now, that one day really makes a difference. Having a Saturday free really gives me a lot more freedom. But I like my job (just maybe not when I'm overwhelmed with assignments, deadlines and my hair loss problem, but more of that later) and I need the paycheck.
Now that I've been financially independent (in terms of shopping and my personal purchases only, haha! I still rely on my parents to feed me and fund my educational expenses which is more than I earn each month sometimes) it will really kill me to beg for shopping money. And they shouldn't even give it to me anyway. So I hope, wish and pray that I could get any kind of part time jobs. Who wants to learn to play the piano? I'm patient, nice and free. And I have coached a student from a fail to a merit (Grade 3).
I plan to purchase an instrument too in due time. Everything does revolve around money, sadly. I am determined to make it big in future so financial matters will no longer be a hindrance for me. We'll see :)
Have a great weekend! I will be enjoying myself for sure ;)
Thursday, November 24, 2011
External Review Checked, Completed and Done With!
Each time I post, my semester has came to an end. Well there you go, the hectic life of an Interior Architecture student. My 3 month holidays has just begun, and my initial excitement wore off pretty quickly. After our final drawing submission on Tuesday morning, I went out with ze collegemates for a hardcore karaoke session. Guess what? We sang for so long that we got tired of it and left early. A total first for me.
Yesterday was pretty relaxing. I just started playing The Sims Social! It was on the top of my holiday to-do list. Other things I'd checked yesterday is preparing my resume for my internship application, which I'm still crossing my fingers about. Chances aren't quite likely but if you don't try, you'll never know right? I'm taking my chances.
Today was more eventful. I mapped out my plans for December already, settling my class schedules and taking a trip to bandroom and the library. The 2009 concert video makes me feel nostalgic. And as a result of my trips today, I now have a purpose in life. A direction. Something to do! JOY!
I guess I just can't sit still and not do anything. Virgos and their high expectations of themselves, tsk tsk. But to make my quest for relaxation easier, I have borrowed a dozen Danielle Steel books from the library! 12 books for me to slowly devour. Mmmm-hmmmm :)
My holidays are looking up! :D
Toodles~
Friday, July 15, 2011
External Review - The Finale
And this marks the end of my foundation year.
I feel relieved, but there is a certain void in my life now. I'm super eager to start my degree and begin my new phase of life! :D
Thursday, May 12, 2011
I wanna go shopping...
So, so badly.
Shopping is very relaxing and de-stressing. However it is a very expensive hobby.
Still, I deserve a treat after my strenuous and stressful "group" project. I hate group work now. Not everyone will be doing their fair share in group work, and it is very unfair for people like me who somehow always end up doing everything.
This is my last semester in foundation anyway! Then I'll be moving on to my degree nyahaha! Which is hopefully less stressful than foundation. I've never been this busy before. The workload is crazily insane.
SPM and foundation in built environment (mainly the design module) is SO different. To me, SPM = last minute cramming and daily slacking. Foundation = consistency and last minute studying (for some subjects). The transition is so abrupt that I still can't really find my feet at times.
Tomorrow is submission day! I hope I can get good marks for this assignment :)
Fingers crossed!
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