属于 - 梁静茹

属于 - 梁静茹

我坚持的 都值得坚持吗
我所相信的 就是真的吗
如果我敢追求 我就敢拥有吗
而如果都算了 不要呢
或许吧 或许我永远都不要遇见他
或许吧 或许我太天真了吧

属于我的昨天之前的结局
我决定我的决定
属于我的明天之后的憧憬
我迷信我的迷信
属于我们点点滴滴的伤心
我们要各自忘记
属于我们闪闪发亮的爱情
我们再一起努力

属于风的 那就去飞翔吧
属于海洋的 那就汹涌的
属于我们的爱 该来的就来吧
为什么不敢呢 不要呢?
是他吧 命中早就注定了的那个他
是他吧 他原来就在这里啊

属于我的昨天之前的结局
我决定我的决定
属于我的明天之后的憧憬
我迷信我的迷信
属于我们点点滴滴的伤心
我们要各自忘记
属于我们闪闪发亮的爱情
我们再一起努力

属于我的昨天之前的结局
我决定我的决定
属于我的明天之后的憧憬
我迷信我的迷信
属于我们点点滴滴的伤心
我们要各自忘记
属于我们闪闪发亮的爱情
我们再一起努力
属于我们点点滴滴的伤心
我们要各自忘记
属于我们闪闪发亮的爱情
我们再一起努力

That is my current favorite song. Its so sad -- it totally matches me these days. I'm not sad all the time though, I'm just sad when I'm like, alone and in my thoughts. That's when I feel like the world is upside down and all of a sudden bitterness just creeps into me.

I am my own's worst enemy. Oh there are definitely worst enemies out there but then I do know myself best. My weaknesses. My strengths. Not that I have many to boast of. But there are those far few.

I am not succeeding in making myself feel better :/

You know what? I can totally relate to Brutus when we're doing questions that require you to take a stand. I like sitting on the fence. But in terms of character, I think that I like Cassius better. I don't really feel like revealing why. I'll be a laughing stock if I did. Or so I think.

Distractions. I'd allowed myself to succumb to them.
But how very lovely this distraction is!

Bonus marks for English?!

For once, I am at a loss for words.



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I'm starting my 纪念册, finally. The pressure is getting to me. There are only 10 more schooling days left. Oh god oh god. I just hope that there's enough time for me to let other people write in. I am such a procrastinator, really. I remember that way back in primary school, I hadn't had enough time and I was picky. People who did not appeal to me did not get the chance to write in my book. That was last time la.

I hope that farewell comes soon because then only I will get back my RM25 from Alyssa Remesh Natesan. Whether she gets her money back or not. Don't mix things together, Alyssa. Tsk tsk. I am giving you a very valuable lesson on life. You don't tell your boss to get the money you owe him from your cousin, do you? Same case.

Today was boring with a capital B. How I envy those 5S2 and 5S5 people. You guys get a bonus of 10 for your english paper!! So those with results over 90% get the maximum 100%! My jaw dropped open when I heard of that. Literally. I wish that Sharmini would just hurry up and give us back our English papers already. I was so so shocked when she was the first teacher to give us back our exam papers. I thought that she was finally turning over a new leaf.

But leopards don't change their spots, do they?

She only returned one of the two papers =.=

I want to score within my own capability lah. I don't need bonuses -- unless it determines your grade la. As in those X9 marks.

Sigh. More next time.

Stephanie ♥

Happy birthday, Joyce

I should have done this earlier. I know I am such a procrastinator. I'm not gonna use my Literature trials as an excuse either. Oh just ignore this and look at the next line.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY, Joyce!

I would post up a photo of us if I had one. I don't >.<

I would post up a photo of the card I made you if I had snapped a photo of it. I didn't.

I owe you. BIG TIME. And you can always remind me about it in exchange for favours. I won't deny you of that right :)

You are an awesome possum friend, and much of what I intend to say to you is already in the card. But the world has a right to know about how great you are. So, you are by far the most cheerful person I've met. And, you really care about your friends. It is really so rare these days to have a friend who is so attentive without any hidden agendas or evil thoughts.

I'll have to add in something about your tolerance level. You are patient, you don't blow up or get pissed off at things that annoy you alot (there is still a line, though, and its really hard to cross yours). But when you tear, its horribly terrifying. To me. I am at a lost when you're upset, and for that I offer you my apologies for not knowing what to do or what could I do to make you feel better.

One day you should pay a visit to a hot spring. You get me :)

You are an absolute gem of a friend (hey, it rhymes!) and I feel privileged to know you, lest of all be your friend. Good luck, stay happy and your life will be a bed of roses (albeit those thorns!).

Love,

Stephanie.

Nostalgia

I think, that I will be missing a lot of things after SPM.

First and foremost, school.

Next, tuition. And my tuition mates.

It had been a wonderful 2 years, really. Life was great and I had learned so, so much. Of course, it wasn't the ideal bed of roses I initially had in mind, but its good enough.

I'm feeling kinda nostalgic now. Physics tuition is ending real soon. I'll miss them people. We all came from the same primary school. There's big headed Wei Lian (kidding la), big mouthed Yu Zhi (not kidding), quiet Teck Hong, sleepy Xingkun, and Chee Yee who is Idunnoknowtodescribe.

Yes, I'm the only girl there. It was a little odd in the beginning, but anyone could get used to it.

Recently I have been having plenty of laughs in tuition with Lily, Louise, Su Saint, Juosie and Karluis. They're a funny, witty, lively and interesting lot.

Tuitions really are kinda nice. Graduation is nearing, and I'm not gonna miss school, seeing as how I won't be able to go to CHS as a student in the very near future. Gasp! It has been five years already. Primary school graduation feels like yesterday. Well actually not really la since yesterday I was at tuition with Lily they all and tuition with Joyce afterward. But you get the idea.

Oh I don't feel like continuing. Why ruin my day (even though its almost over)?

After SPM then only I'll worry about stepping into a new phase in life.

Excitement?? Reality hasn't really hit me yet.

I wished that I could have done better in today's exam. I still can't get over the fact that Miss Leela trusted us enough to leave us alone for a quarter of an hour. It is an exam!! Well, in any case I didn't cheat la. It wasn't necessary and I really wanted to test my level of understanding (yes, it is Stephanie talking here). This is English Literature, people!

A song is running in my head right now. Its 给我一首歌的时间 by Jay Chou. Weird. I don't even like that song that much. And this Realtek thing on my computer is a Realnuisance. It kecoh-ed me in my Spot the Difference!! Dulannya. There's a time limit too!

If I could just figure out how to uninstall it...

Sigh. I really need to brush up on my computing knowledge. Or else I will fish again (Northern Antivirus xD). It was Yuee Sun who'd pointed out my error. I blame it on Caesar. Because he had described himself as the northern star and caused me to mix up everything.

By the way, Yuee Sun (yes you again), I was right about the spelling of Titinius. But I muddled up Cassius' suicide with Brutus'. Stupid stupid. I don't like how Shakespeare names his characters. Most of their names end with -ius. Its so hard to say if you're saying Brutus' shoes, for example. Or Cassius' beard. I hope he doesn't have a beard. Yuck.

So today was another study day. If I go to tuition, I benefit. If I don't, I go back to Mafia Wars. Simple theory, really.

I can't wait to go school tomorrow! It'll be so much fun meeting up with my buddies! Seeing as how we aren't gonna be seeing much of each other after graduation... OH NO I FORGOT TO MAKE KAI FOONG'S BIRTHDAY CARD. Shit. I made Joyce's birthday card, though. Upon a stroke of inspiration from... me.

See, when I don't update in a long time, I'll have tons to update the next time! This post is solid proof. I think that I have to go make Kai Foong's birthday card already. Inspiration will hit me in another 3-2-1 seconds. No actually it didn't. But it'll come soon. Haha.

Bye! Have a great day~

New skin, hee!

Sawadikah :)

Like the changes?

Its certainly less pink. I got bored of my pink skin. Even my Twitter was all pink (not anymore, fyi). So I'm using my private blog's background. Very eye-pleasing, I must say. Well, till I get bored of it, that is.

Since my photoshop is officially dysfunctional, I cannot create something more... original. More -- me. I guess that I'd have to leave out those butterflies until something is done to fix up my computer. It is old, slow and very unresponsive. It usually takes a few clicks to enter a webpage or to refresh a page. And that is very annoying. To top it off, it serves as a family computer for my sister, dad and moi. The ratio is 3:1. So we usually fight over it. Not a pretty story.

Today I'd started a new tuition. It was okay. The teacher was super fierce. Miaw and I literally jumped out of our skins when she banged the whiteboard. Ouch.

Fate and luck are not on my side. Sure, I may meet someone better, but he really is too gorgeous to pass up! This is to you, Wai Yeen! :p

So Kai Foong, this is The Photo.
If you had Facebook it'd be waaay easier.


Its like 家好月圆。So cool, eh?

I don't know what I'll be doing tomorrow. Shopping, hopefully! But fat chance of it happening. I'll be contented browsing through bookstores for reference books, though. Maybe even a trip to the library? I am trying really, really hard to be pious and prudent here.

Even if I may not perform as well, at least I try.
Well, maybe not so much in chemistry.

Restaurant City is getting pretty boring. I forgot about my food quiz and when I finally reopened that page, the time limit was up. No free ingredient, aww. The fire just died down in me. I'm currently playing Sorority Life out of boredom. Half-heartedly, even.

I spent the afternoon putting on a face mask, sleeping and reading Grimm's Fairy Tales. Ahh I miss those childhood days. I had a virtually endless supply of books from my dad's childhood days. Those books contained plenty of lovely stories that you can't find anymore -- Asian fables (yes, those characters wore sarees and turbans xD) and tales too! I'm feeling a little nostalgic right now. And weary.

Need some rest. My mom took away the rug that I brought upstairs for the toilet outside my room. She claims that it is ONLY for her bathroom. How prissy. And she lectured me for using up all the tissues in her room. Hello, at least I replenished it lah. Its crime to be sick in this household

=.=

P.S. My blog seems kinda transparent now -- very opaque.
I feel... overexposed.

Stephanie ♥

Post-trials outing ^^

Oh-kay. So here I am, after one looong week of gruelling trials. Miss me? You'd better miss your add maths or physics or some other subject.

So, I went out again today. You know, everytime I tell myself "this outing will be the last", I know deep down somewhere that I'm just kidding myself. This is my last year of secondary school, come on. We really should be balancing up between fun and school ;)

Anyway, I had a 10-buck ice cream with Miaw today. SINGLE SCOOP. I feel awful. Really. Don't rub it in anymore. Undeniably, the ice cream (Haagen Daz) was terrific (for the price I paid, pfft), but it had also burned a hole in my pocket. And I'm still smarting from it. Yes, still.

Miaw and I joined different groups of people today. Short sessioned ones, but we'd decided that it would be more fun to go around by ourselves. So it was pretty much a hi and bye thing.

I'm still considering whether to get my eyebrows done professionally or not. I need new eyebrows. Mine suck because the last time I had it shaped during facial they did a pretty bad job of it. But then again I should get it done later. It'll grow anyway. It depresses me to look like how I look.

And if you think that I'm overly concerned about my appearance, let's face the fact that most girls are vain. If they aren't, they're either under developed or they just have less estrogen. Period.

I am super amazed at Hock Eu's newly-styled hair. I highly doubt that it'll "last till prom, at least" according to him. But it looks nice. And I wonder if it'll stay that way after a shampoo. Oh I should stop having so much doubts. But in nature, I am a very suspicious person. Can't help myself sometimes.

The flu is making me very uncomfortable. The state of my mucous is -- nevermind, you wouldn't wanna know. But it sure sticks more than the nail polish I used on Ching Nee's birthday card.

I wouldn't even start mentioning about trials.
They certainly weren't a bed of roses >.< size="4">Goodbye, have a nice day and study hard :)

Stephanie ♥