Feeling so proud of myself!

I photoshopped this out today! From scratch, despite my close to nil photoshop knowledge or skills. IT LOOKS GREAT EH, for a beginner?

My first photoshop project that does not involve typing in words only.

Well actually I followed a tutorial but I still feel such a great sense of accomplishment. This image is now my desktop background~

Hehehe!

加油哦~ Stephanie!

My semester is ending soon, and I really must put my all into it.

Even though I am heavily penalised for not attending the site visit (which I so totally cannot afford on my meagre salary), I still hope that I can do well.

As the Japanese say:

Anything that is worth doing is worth doing well.

I really like that saying and wholeheartedly agree with it.

All the best to me!

Personality Test

Engaged Idealist

• My Type
• My Career
• My Love
• My Happiness

Engaged Idealists are extroverted and helpful. Others find them to be very congenial and inspiring - especially as they are always willing to see the best in the other person. Their humour, their energy and their optimism attract other people. Engaged Idealists are very good at communicating and are good at convincing and firing on others. That is why it is a matter of course that they often take over the leading role in groups. This personality type often produces very charismatic persons.

Engaged Idealists have an unusually strong ability to empathise. They are tolerant and generous towards others; they sometimes tend to idealise their friends. They always try to suit everybody and want their relationships to be harmonious and satisfactory. To achieve this, they are prepared to invest a great deal and to put their requirements last. As Engaged Idealists are very considerate, there is the danger of them sacrificing and overexerting themselves for others. In their job, they therefore have to be very careful not to develop a burnout syndrome.

Engaged Idealists are reliable, well organised and love structuring complicated situations. They have difficulty accepting criticism; they quickly feel hurt and misunderstood. Their perfectionism also influences their love life - they look for the perfect relationship for life. Once they have made their decision, they are faithful, well-balanced and loving partners. However, should they get involved with the wrong person, it can happen that they allow themselves to be exploited for a long time before they end the relationship.

Adjectives which describe your type: extroverted, theoretical, emotional, planning, idealistic, committed, likable, enthusiastic, responsible, helpful, loyal, diplomatic, friendly, inspiring, caring, solicitous, optimistic, effusive, adaptable, communicative, articulate, convincing, energetic, optimistic, open, vulnerable

On my own

我伤心，谁知道？

我哭了，谁理会？

我觉得好没用、无助、失败。

作业怎样做都搞不定，因为我总没灵感，做不出自己满意的东西。

压力太多了，哪儿来的灵感呀……

我的脾气变坏了，连我都觉得自己很暴躁。是真的很 暴躁那种。明知说了会后悔，但那些难听的话还是从口中出来。我想控制自己，但不说出来心里会更不舒服；因为那些怨气是不会走的，只会在心里滚动，搞得我快要崩溃了。

除此之外，我又没空理我的 dear。这点让我觉得好后悔，好内疚…… 再说，他生病了，我更应该多关心他呀。但是我没有。

我很坏，是不是？

烦恼好多，多到我不想活下去了。但是我也不会那么笨去搞自杀啦……只要我再忍多几年，就会看到阳光了。

我能如愿以偿吗？:/

我领悟了

最近我犯了几个大错。

后悔了。但也从中学习了。

I've been too quick in passing judgment.

I'm not always kind in my words. I can be spiteful and nasty, and its not a side of me that I like.

I wasn't satisfied with my life because I chose to see the negative side of things instead of the positive side.

对我不小心错误的人，我真心对不起。

对于那些肯耐心劝告我的好朋友，谢谢你们。

我的个性太情绪化了…

谁叫我是个红色脑子的人啊…

According to the personality test, red people are emotional, rash, passionate, impulsive and tend to not think before they act. Its not how I want to be, but it is who I am. But even if its IN me, I still have to try and change for the better.

反正，我的成长空间还很大呀……

最重要的是理解、领悟、改善、进步。

我绝对不能半途而废，就这样放弃了我要改善的念头！

所以得写个部落篇来提醒提醒自己 xD

加油咯，Stephanie!

P.S. Waiyeen, your words of encouragement inspired me to write more in Chinese :D